Last week was a discouraging week. Not only was I flooded with busywork, lots of job-related minutiae, but I got some disappointing news as well. But by the end of the week things turned around. Good news came. Work got done and my mood improved. I’m amazed and frustrated by how much my outer circumstances affect my inner life. I need to reread Epictetus or the Sermon on the Mount, “Take no thought for the morrrow. . .” (Matt. 6:34). Today I am resolved to read and relax, regardless of what life brings me. Breathe in, breathe out. That’s most of what I have to do today.
In my devotional reading this morning, I came across the following prayer I want to share with you:
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. (Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude)